Yesterday’s word count: 0
I did open the file and look at it for a while, so it’s not as if I totally took the day off. But I couldn’t bring myself to add any sentences. I realized that, at least a little, I’m intimidated by my own goals. I have all these great images in my head–the dark night, the starry sky, the spooky house, the sound and smell and results of shots fired, the passionate conversations–and I’m afraid that I can’t do them justice. I’m worried that it’ll be dull on the page or tangled up with implausibility and that I have so many characters running in and out that no one will be able to keep track of them, including me. That my villain won’t be terrifying in the moments that he should be and that the curtain will be pulled back too soon (maybe already has been) on his Great-and-Powerful Oz quality. So many things to be afraid of.
But today I’m going to keep swimming anyway. 1000 words. That’s the goal.
Yes, keep swimming and do not be afraid. Nobody can tell your story like YOU can. 😉
I am happy to report that Hubby is home now. We were expecting another long day and night in the hospital room, hopeful only for an early checkout tomorrow (Monday morning). But then the doctor came in and said he was good to go home. We were very excited – but not too excited. Our last experience was about a 5-hour checkout process.
Luck was with us again. Within an hour, the nurse came in with ALL of the discharge paperwork completed. She removed the last of the tubes and monitors attached to his body – and then we were on our way to the Lobby.
AWESOME. Hubby is so excited to be home and in his own bed. And I am looking forward to getting back to a more normal routine this week. 😀
Yay, terrific news! Glad the hospital ordeal is over!
Judy, Judy, Judy said:
Sounds like the fears of most successful writers. Your history as a writer tells me, you can overcome them.
Thanks, Judy! It’s been slow going today, but I think I’m getting there.
I think dwelling on fear of making a mistake will only stunt the characters and the writing. Maybe there is a way to do some stream of consciousness sessions where you don’t think about everything being perfect, but let the characters run the show. Write without inner critique and see if something natural and real comes out. Then you can tame it later!