The tree outside my bedroom window is in full bloom. I have no idea what it is, but it has deep green leaves and little white blooms and I imagine that it’s jasmine, even though I’ve never heard of a jasmine tree. But it smells incredible and I’ve never been able to find a description of another white flowering tree that seems to match.
I ate outside this morning, watching the bees start to buzz around the tree, admiring the bright flowers on the (evil) bougainvillea, listening to the birds, and thought, “Am I crazy? How can I let this go?” But it only took me a second to remind myself that the tree doesn’t bloom year-round, that the patio needs pressure-watching to get rid of the mold, that the pool should really be re-surfaced sometime soon, even though my new (expensive) variable-speed pool pump is doing an awesome job, and that I’m guaranteed the occasional beautiful morning in a life on the road, even if many of them wind-up being views of concrete pads and other RVs. It was reassuring.
In other news, my neighborhood is having a community garage sale on April 23rd. Ha. Or argh. I’m not sure which, really. Maybe both. Since the garage is still mostly set up for a sale, I might finish sorting the rest of the house and put stuff out for that sale. It should be a lot easier: no ads, no signs, and a semi-guaranteed customer base. But it will still be well before the time I intend to put the house on the market, so I don’t want to get rid of everything — I don’t want to be living in an empty house for months while I wait for it to sell. Can you imagine how depressing that would be? Ugh. But there’s plenty of kitchen stuff that I didn’t manage to get out and I might see if I can brave the emotional cost of the china again. And the chaos of the house is slowly but surely settling into something I can live with. Two rooms are neat and orderly, three more are only semi-chaotic, and the remaining two — my bedroom and the kitchen — are still in complete disarray, but with potential to be straightened up and acceptable sometime soon.
In yoga today, L, the yoga instructor, read a beautiful piece about non-attachment to objects. So fitting. I tried to find it online so I could post it, but she told me to google “yamas” and there’s so much info out there that I cannot find the right poem. Or prayer. Maybe it was both. Either way, it was perfectly timed.
But speaking of timing, somehow it has gotten late. Today is the start of a new writing chain, so I’d best get moving!
I think what she meant was The Five Yamas…
Another site to check out is Ekhart Tole:
Yep, that’s it. But she read a really beautiful poem (or prayer) and that was the specific thing I wanted to find. I suppose she might have made been making it up on the fly, too, but I think she was reading.
Judy Judy Judy said:
Sounds like you are definitely gathering the mentality to leave the house behind. Glad you have the time to do that.
Me, too! Realistically, if I don’t so something soon, I’m going to be faced with losing my house in much more unpleasant ways, so being proactive is a good choice for me. But I’m glad I can do it optimistically instead of with lots of angst and regret and guilt.
I think your tree is a Sweet Olive. It can be a largish shrub or a small to medium tree.
YES! I think you are absolutely right. It’s lovely. The smell is so wonderful. I’d never heard of sweet olive but the descriptions are spot on (including the part where you shouldn’t plant too close to a wall, which, alas, the people who planted this tree did — it needs to be moved, but that’s an expense I’ve been unable to manage.)
Judy, Judy, Judy said:
BTW are you still happy with your Chromebook? I’m in the market.
I wound up getting a used Mac at a pawn shop which I am very, very, very happy with. I still like the Chromebook but I couldn’t make creating an ebook work on it, so I needed another solution for publishing. Not that I’ve published anything with it yet, but I thought I was getting close on Grace.